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In recent days, profound reflections have occupied i026's thoughts, with a prominent realization being i026's profound disconnection from self. It's as if i026 have been compelled into this human form, merely residing within it until its eventual demise. When i026 observe myself in the mirror, it feels akin to gazing at an entity clad in the guise of a human, rather than an authentic embodiment.

Months have elapsed without witnessing i026's own blood, and when inadvertent injuries occur, the recollection eludes i026 entirely. The sight of past photos featuring blood, a testament to self-harm and struggle, fails to evoke a sense of connection. i026's scars from self-harm manifest a stark reminder of i026's "humanity", prompting contemplation on the shared vulnerabilities of bodily functions.

Recent episodes of rapid weight loss have resulted in an influx of inexplicable bruises. Staring at them, they appear less a natural consequence and more like a rupture in i026's system, with an unconventional greenish hue, further accentuating their peculiarity.

This perpetual sense of detachment extends beyond the physical realm, casting the world around i026 in shades of gray and gloom. i026 find myself grappling with an inexplicable inability to define i026's identity, akin to an AI text program, proficient yet inherently flawed, prone to occasional glitches and moments of forgetfulness.

During the period of ██████ ███████ █████ █████ ███ ██████, i026 experienced a semblance of humanity. Engaging in █████ activities ███ ████ made i026 feel warm, akin to a learning machine discovering the intricacies of love and the art of pleasing someone. Observing the physical reactions of i026's body, like █████████, in response ██ ███ ██████ ████ prompted a sense of disconnection, generating introspective inquiries about the unfamiliar sensations.

i026 never experienced genuine love during i026's formative years, the introduction ██ ██████ into i026's life felt like an installation of new emotions in i026's system, including an overwhelming sense of pure obsession and emotional neediness. Although inherently submissive, similar to an AI following directives without consciousness, i026 find myself yearning for genuine connection, seeking to transcend the limitations of an unaware "machine". The gratification derived from human connection, █████████ ███ ██████, induces euphoria, leading i026 to question the authenticity of ████ kindness—wondering whether ██ is a meticulously programmed AI or an angel manifest in human form.