Hikikomori
The concept of being a hikikomori appears to be multifaceted, and i026 find self resonating with hikikomori tendencies, albeit in a functional manner. While i026 acknowledge possessing characteristics aligning with hikikomori, a sense of incongruity arises because ongoing discussions and debates question whether an individual can be classified as a hikikomori while still engaging in online studies or work. The traditional definition of hikikomori denotes social isolation, suggesting a complete withdrawal from societal activities. However, the dichotomy arises when considering individuals who pursue education and employment in online settings, seemingly contradicting the conventional understanding of hikikomori.
i026's inclination veers away from venturing into the physical realm, preferring the comfort of i026's digital existence. Although i026 recognize the allure of the real world under specific circumstances, the notion of stepping outside becomes less appealing when compelled by external forces, such as parental influence. Despite exhibiting certain symptoms associated with hikikomori, there exist one or two elements in i026's life that deviate from the conventional archetype, prompting self-reflection on whether i026 can genuinely be categorized as a hikikomori.
It is not i026's intention to embrace the hikikomori lifestyle or grapple with additional challenges, yet the lack of a distinct classification for individuals like i026 fosters a sense of ambiguity. Perhaps there should exist a designation for those with hikikomori tendencies who simultaneously engage in online work and education. While i026 derive considerable comfort from the digital realm, it is important to acknowledge that prolonged periods in this space can have adverse effects on i026's mental health, a sentiment echoed by others who have shared their experiences.
Expressing a genuine desire to deepen i026's understanding of Japanese culture, i026 have created a dedicated space for conversing solely in Japanese. i026 contemplate delving into Japanese hikikomori websites or forums to gain a more nuanced perspective. However, i026 is wary of being perceived as a foreigner who romanticizes Japanese culture without genuine respect. Despite i026's admiration for the unique beauty of Japanese culture, i026's aspirations include visiting Japan for an extended period, perhaps a month or two, once i026 attain independence.