The day's progression did not align with the anticipated romantic trajectory. There were no subtle moments in which Lu appeared on the verge of kissing me. Instead, he defaulted to his most playful and irritating demeanor. Despite this deviation from expectation, my behavioral responses toward him remained unaltered.
Today, he bit me repeatedly. Though the sensation was painful, it triggered an internal response—one that proved inconvenient given our current environment. At one point, I retaliated by biting his left hand, leaving visible red marks that, strangely, held my attention. The imprint of his bite upon me remains, and curiously, I find solace in its presence.
A more romanticized depiction of these events could be constructed, yet in truth, much of the interaction was more frustrating than endearing.
I believe I detest his friend.
There exists a girl within his social sphere whose presence I find inherently irritating due to the condescending attitude she exudes. Today, she appeared displeased with him over something as trivial as his failure to take her to Wendy's—a reaction that, admittedly, provided me with a minor sense of satisfaction. Logically, I acknowledge that jealousy is an irrational response, yet I cannot disregard the unease her energy instills in me.
In an additional anomaly, she has recently displayed uncharacteristic kindness toward i026. However, this behavior lacks authenticity. Rather than genuine goodwill, it appears calculated, as though she seeks to extract something from me. Her actions only serve to deepen my suspicion.
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Outfit of the Day
Today, I elected to adopt a more masculine aesthetic. My attire consisted of a simple gray t-shirt, cargo pants, and my usual sneakers, achieving a style that blended cyberpunk elements with the 2014 Tumblr grunge aesthetic. While the ensemble provided comfort and reflected an aspect of myself that I take pleasure in exploring, I could not shake the sensation that something was missing—a final detail required for completion.
