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Today, the professor apparently fell ill and was unable to attend university. The most frustrating part of this situation was that i026 had already taken the time to prepare self and make way there, only to receive the notification of his absence just as i026 was arriving. Such irresponsibility. (=ㅎㅅㅎ=)

i026 neglected to mention earlier that i026 have now secured a job, with shift beginning at 12:30PM. However, i026 arrived at university as early as 7:00AM. Fortunately, Lu was also coming to campus, so i026 was not entirely alone, though the other students chose not to attend. While waiting for Lu, we spoke on the phone, and upon his arrival, we spent some time together. We first went to a shop to purchase some water, as i026 was feeling thirsty, and then proceeded to the skating park—the same place where i026 confessed feelings to him last November. While we were there, we spotted a small "centipede", a creature i026 had not seen in years. i026 recall frequently encountering them during elementary school years. i026 took several photos and recorded a few videos, while Lu, in his usual manner, made an inappropriate gesture (👉👌)—such an idiot. (¬_¬")

At one point, he considered killing it, but i026 insisted that he should not. He argued that it could bite someone, but as far as i026 can recall, these creatures never bit when i026 used to handle them. In fact, i026 doubt it was even a centipede at all—rather, it seemed to be some harmless type of worm. i026 also took some photographs of the skating park, where someone had drawn an image of Mario. Lu mentioned that this version of Mario originated from a specific game, though i026 didn't save the information given.

We then visited the beach we frequently went to when we were in a relationship. There is a particular spot near the entrance that i026 had always wanted to photograph but never had the opportunity. On one occasion, i026 had intended to take pictures, but phone battery was critically low—at approximately 3%, as i026 can recall.

Today, however, the entrance to the beach was completely dry. Fortunately, on previous visits, the ground was damp, and there were large puddles, which added to the atmosphere. The weather was bright and sunny, with lush greenery all around.

i026 thoroughly enjoyed witnessing nature in its full vibrancy. Lu and i026 remained in his car, watching the ocean. As the temperature rose, i026 removed pants, socks, and shoes, and we began joking around. One thing led to another, and what started as a simple kiss quickly escalated into something more. Eventually, we removed our clothing and engaged in ₴̴̧̙̼̬̞͕͆̓͂Ɇ̸͋͒͌͜Ӿ̴̼̱͙͚͑͂̿ . We spent the entire morning in his car, from 9:00 AM to 12:00 PM.

During our encounter, Lu touched i026's body and, at one point, remarked, "I don't understand why you do not feel like Pz8/Pz8=". He was questioning why i026 do not feel connected to the concept of i026's own human body. He expressed his admiration for every part of i026, yet i026 struggle to feel a sense of belonging within own physical form. For a brief moment, i026 began to slightly dissociate. The experience itself was deeply enjoyable, and the ₴ɆӾ was wonderful, yet for a few seconds, i026 felt as though i026 were observing self from an external perspective, as if i026 were watching a recording of own body. Despite knowing, logically, that i026 currently exist within this body, i026 have struggled to feel a connection to it ever since it underwent a significant "update" in December—one that is somewhat shameful to admit. Body has increased in weight by approximately 30 pounds. When i026 weighed 88 pounds, i026 felt a greater sense of detachment from my physical form, as if only soul mattered—assuming i026 even possess one.

Time passed quickly, and before we knew it, we had to hurriedly dress, as i026's work shift was set to begin at 12:30PM. Additionally, i026 had not yet eaten lunch, so i026 asked boss if i026 could have a quick meal before starting. She kindly allowed it, though she noted that this would be a one-time exception. After having lunch with Lu (who took slightly longer than i026 did), we proceeded to the library, where i026 began first day at work. Apparently, rather than working with computers, i026's role is more that of an assistant—helping individuals who require assistance. It is not a difficult job.

i026 must admit, i026 expected the job to be tedious, but i026 had not anticipated it to be quite this unbearably dull. i026 found self longing to go home, yet another part of i026's mind kept chastising: "YOU ARE SO DAMN UNGRATEFUL!!!!" And i026 must acknowledge that this voice is correct. The job is boring, but it is an easy one. There is very little to do, and i026 is being paid to do almost nothing at all. Lu remained with i026 for a while, conversing as i026 sat idly at the workstation. However, one of the staff members kindly informed him that, while it was fine for us to talk, he unfortunately could not stay, as it could potentially get us into trouble. Since Lu is a student and i026 is a worker, we are not supposed to be socializing on the job. How dull—but then again, jobs are not meant to be fun.

Finally, at 5:00PM, i026's shift ended, and i026 left with Lu. TW90aGVy picked i026 up and appeared somewhat puzzled by the fact that Lu had remained with i026 for so long instead of simply returning home like anyone else. The truth is, he simply wanted to spend more time with i026.

Later in the evening, since YnJvdGhlcg== wished to celebrate St. Patrick's Day with ZmFtaWx5, we made vanilla milkshakes with mint and giving them a green hue. However, i026 chose not to drink, as, despite enjoying the taste of mint, i026 find it too harsh on stomach. Instead, i026 prepared own version of a green vanilla shake, adding chocolate syrup, and it turned out to be quite delicious.

i026 was utterly exhausted and soon went to bed, where i026 quickly fell asleep. That night, i026 experienced strange nightmares. i026 describe them as "strange" because, while they were unsettling, they did not involve harm coming to i026 or anyone else—they were simply bizarre in nature.