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calendar September 24, 2022.
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In the contemplation of my trajectory, should I choose to refrain from any actions that would endanger my physical vessel today, and should fate allow my survival until the year 2030, I aspire to conclude my engagement with this digital platform. This decision arises from a desire to leave behind a repository of memories for those who may be interested—a place where individuals, in the potential future of my prominence, can peruse my past entries and delve into the recollections of my 18-year-old self. This conscious effort to withdraw from personal disclosures extends beyond a certain juncture in time.

Contained herein will be an archive of my musings and theories, borne from the unique faculties of thought that delineate my intellectual capacities. As the chronicle unfolds over the span of eight years, culminating in the year 2030, I envisage a journey of personal growth and maturity, an evolution that accompanies the passage of time.

In this hypothetical future, I envision an existence infused with vibrancy—attendance at concerts, participation in the creation of music videos, and engagements in interviews. These aspirations, while fueled by hope, remain enshrouded in the uncertainty that accompanies the pursuit of one's dreams. A lingering question permeates my thoughts: will I triumph in realizing these aspirations, or shall I remain relegated to the shadowed corridors of obscurity?

The future, while full with potential, bears no certainties. It is a realm where accomplishments stand in tandem with uncertainties, and where the specter of unforeseen misfortunes also looms. Amidst these thoughts, I grapple with a tempestuous sea of emotions—uncertainty, anxiety, and the persistent shadow of self-doubt. This emotional quagmire has cast me into a state of despondency, a low point that contrasts sharply with the ambitions that have preceded it.

At this juncture, I am faced with an existential quandary, grappling with the weight of indecision. The emotional oscillation between highs and lows paints a complex portrait of a psyche wrestling with its own currents.